Used to miss it but now i hate it

Where have my motivation gone to?
I really need to overcome it but the problem is how?
Ask lots of people for advise but I just failed to do so..
Its hard...
Nobody know how and what to do...
Have the mood to give up but I can't,,
I really don't want to disappoint those who have putting high hope on me..
I really don't want to give up..
Need to find my motivation back...

Trying my best ...

What should I do?
Have been asking myself again&again but I just can't get it...
My only motivation is to brainwash myself that i can do it..
This phrase used to be my motivation,"If your dreams is still alive,Then one day it will come true".
But what is my dream?Chef?I don't really know myself...

What am I trying to do?

I really don't know myself..
Did i take the wrong path?~
What should I do now?Feeling so burden...
Trying my best but i can't do it...
Have been asking myself?But I just can't find a answer...
First week and i feel like giving up...
I really don't want to disappoint those who have high hopes on me...
But I really have no ideas what step I should take..


Why am I feeling this way?
God,please guide me along the way..

Feeling so burden that I begin to think that all of them hate me..
What should I do?
I start to lose hope..
The light in front of me is getting dimmer~
Going to lose the way...

Please..someone,just pull me out from this darkness~